Sooner Or Later

Sitting in front of my dear lappy for about an hour, doing nothing but with zillion of thought running out my mind. *sigh* so much thing to define (yerr..busy otak eh..haha) all of the sudden this issue pop-out  from my tiny little brain ( i think it's little because i have a small size head ..LOL)..yeah INSECURE AND SECURE. being used to this words before..and when 

You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look stuff that u handling with, and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't.

One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.

And when you think getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself, and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it.

We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

Dear everyone, it is ok to have these feeling at least this shows that our brain is functioning well to think about the stuff that we dealing with in life. but too much of  feeling insecure can kill us slowly. woo...sound like a serial killer huh..yeah  it's a type of sickness..it is..too much will lead to damages.so, just try to put up some positive thought to cover it up ok! :)) 

take it easy, the sun will shine again ^_^

till then... 

"don wait until its too late

don wait until its gone

don wait until there's no turning back

love is... all you wanted it to be.."

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