let by gone be gone..

thank you :)

i heart u hater..

THESE EYES AINT ROLLING

AND MY LIPS AINT MOVING

MY ARMS ARE NOT FOLDING,

SO WHAT ARE YOU PROVING?

IM NOT PAYING ATTENTION TO YOU

OUR NOT IMPORTANT TO ME

STOP HATING, IM THROUGH

IM STILL SOPHIA, YOU SEE.

I WONT GET UPSET, NOT EVEN MAD

IM HAPPY YOU’RE JEALOUS,

YOU WANT ME GONE? AWW THAT’S TOO BAD!

MY PRIDE IS REBELLIOUS!

IT’S OBVIOUS, YOU’RE A HATER

AND IM WHO YOU’RE HATING ON

OH WELL, NICE CHAT, SEE YOU LATER

YEA YA MIGHT HATE ME HARDER WHEN IM GONE

so what? :p I'm holding on for dear life. Dear, dear life... ^^

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first of all: Hello December..^^ i promise that i will be a good girl ok. ^^

second of all: lots of uncertainty in my head

third of all: today has been a good day.

                                                   that's gonna happen more often... :)) seharusnya Ok..

I could not possibly say all I've been thinking right now. My mind is a whirlpool. Chess pool, maybe.

Here's a snippet: I see what God's doing by removing control from me. He's making me squirm and retraining where I turn. I've prayed more and trusted more and gleaned more wisdom in the past week than in the rest of my life combined. Now the name of the game is to fend off spiritual warfare and resentment when I ask God for peace and don't find any. I always used to find it there.

I know He knows what's best for me, and I trust that that will be revealed to me in my lifetime.

I wish I could peek into what best for me and rest has assured that it's the same thing I yearn for.

I wish I could control what I yearn for. I can't control it, but I do think it's changing..

I prefer the days when I want to say, "screw you, realists!" to the days when I am the realist.
there are signs everywhere. The one at the top of my list is that though we are going places, neither of us is going anywhere.

and for now, I am steeping in that optimistic certainty.
screw you, realists! ~dush~

Dear everyone,this world is seriously a superb unpredictable place to stay in. People come and go.

Things you own are now yours and next not yours the weather change hot to cold without warning. Don’t wait. Go and appreciate everything you have now make every sentence your last sentence because you wouldn't know which word are going to be your last words.Make no regrets. :)

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role of the poetry

Poetry is a sensory. Its a pull phrases together from what I feel, what I imagine those around me feel. I pull phrases from what I wish I knew how to feel. Curiously enough, sensory overload represses the phrases and pulls me only to feel.

I'm not sure why I thought that a divine calling required a skill. Or why I thought senses to be overrated; I wished they would fall away, pave the way--get out the way!--of the truth. I expected the truth to end profoundly, to comfort me, to push me, to call me to thrive. I expected a truth to list the steps to discovering truth. And no, I didn't/still don't care that truth is objective, subjective, vague, and up to interpretation. Its ability to be interpreted is only your interpretation of it.

Sorry. I sound like a philosopher..(serius bah ^^ )

What I'm getting at is a discovery. I discovered, while pushing to listen past the sirens for something profound, something supernatural to guide my feet, that the sirens are profound. My ability to pull them apart from each other, to try and transform them, Transformer style (bumblebee la tek..hihi) , into the sound of falling rain, is a calling in itself. I am called as a follower of Jesus Christ, submerged in the center of the world, to sense.

Because, friends, those who say (while I see what they're getting at) "love is senseless..." are choosing to take love's kaleidoscope and peer through a single facet. I'm striving to go beyond the direct, past the peripheral brings what I see as my God-given influence to those around me, I can't prioritize it over simply soaking in what God puts in front of me. Poetry is sensory, love is sensory, God is love. Love is good. God is good! <3
So,are we good?..yeah..we are good la ho.. :))

smile and enjoy life to the fullest

"Life is like writing a poem; every piece is put together to create who we are, what we do and how we feel. Every experience shapes us into who we eventually become. Every trauma we faced wasn't easy through its hurts but was allowed to shape our heart so that we'll grow into a better person we dreamt of." 

as a conclusion life must goes ON..hipp hipp hoorayy... (ceah.. terlebih sudah...ha5) 
Ok la thats all for today,till then peeps..have a good days ahead.. ^^


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Hit them UP!

What inspire me most are words of wisdom: quotes, pep talks, listening to the words of successful people.  Some of my favorite quotes you will find below.  They are the quotes I look at when I'm feeling sad, disappointed, excited, driven, happy, or mad.  Quotes can help you think about your own life, and a good quote can change your emotion.

"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.”

"Things happen too fast, so be kind to everyone. Treat friends and family as if you will never get to hear their voices again. Live everyday as if it's your last. You never know when your last breath will be."

"Sometimes you have to forget how you feel; and remember what you deserve.

"In one moment your entire life can change course.

The moment you decide where you're going because you refuse to go back to where you've been."

"Life isn't about finding yourself. 

Life is about creating you."

"Everything will turn out alright in the end. If it's not good, then it's not the end."

 " Life is beautiful; try to make it most beautiful."

" Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumblebee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams."

" Faith is no irresponsible shot in the dark. It is a responsible trust in the God who knows the desire of your hearts, the dreams you are given, and the goals you have set. He will guide your paths right."

" Don't just go through life, GROW through life. Yesterday is gone and you can't get it back so leave the wish I.. woulda, coulda, shoulda in the past with it. Each new day you are given a new opportunity to start over and become a better you. The power lies within you"
(I wrote this because I feel we all have the power within us to do and become better. We have to first believe and then act.)

I've learnt that on a quest to start a new life, you will face a lot of challenges and uphill battles that will try to bring you down. Fears will arise that will make you stumble and the only way to stop them is to face them! As a friend, I would like you to know life will knock us down but we can choose to get back up. Remember - Always be strong... Root that in your heart. (as a reminder to myself too..hehe)

Above all, I'm blessed; my Creator is good, ^^

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Letting Go the negativity

There is a positive change happening in me. Lately I feel like my life is moving forward in a wonderful way. I am experiencing happiness, motivation, inspiration and a general excitement for what life has to bring me.

I feel like I am being awakened to a new level of consciousness and being. I am trusting in God. I am trusting in myself. I am trusting that my life is exactly how it is meant to be right now and I am trusting that everything happens exactly as it is meant to. I am realizing that the way I live my life and how I perceive it is ENTIRELY up to me and it is a CHOICE to be happy and to create a reality which gives me peace and happiness.

Do you ever wonder how people in seemingly the worst circumstances can still smile, laugh and enjoy life, while others who seem to have everything are miserable? It's about being thankful for what you do have, and not what you THINK your life lacks. It seems to me that for so long I have been feeling that money has held me back (i am a little shopaholic :p ) or that I needed certain things in my life to be happy. But what are a few worthless slips of paper going to do for me? Buy me something else that's not going to matter when I'm dead? I read a quote today that goes something along the lines of "the man who dies with the most toys, still dies." And that made me realize that when I am gone, the possessions that I acquired through my life do not matter. It's the experiences, thoughts, feelings relationships and perceptions that I had that will matter. What I do with my life. what positivity I put out into the earth, what I do to better myself and others as human beings is what will matter.
I feel at peace. When I consider these things, I feel my eyes well up with tears of happiness. Do you know what a relief it is to finally feel this amount of peace and understanding?


I'm telling you, right now I'm feeling very impulsive. When I think about things this way it makes me want to pack up and go to my next destination. I want to just say "screw the Man!" and live on my own terms. But reality sets in and I remember I have bills to pay, I have pets to feed (err..my brother's pets..haha) and I have a responsibility to take care of those things before I can just say screw it and do what I want.

So all in all, I'm feeling good...yayy!

So my plea to you is try finding the positive in every situation. Choose not to have bad days. Choose to perceive things as valuable experiences and lessons rather than as hardships and bad luck. It will make such a difference. boleh la ho...hehe
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Well, that's my update for now. I hope you are all out there enjoying life and every moment you are privileged to live! Love your life.. <3


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adding more on my book's collection:bought all this during the popular books' sale..yippie....

having fun with friends; peace,happiness,love ^^

I love myself on days like this one

 I do not understand, but I will not struggle to do so either
I will remain calm, forget what I need to and experience new things
Free spirit, I do not need anyone else than myself to live or to feel happy :) :D

I've got it all on: Smile, shine, laughter and swag. yippieeeeee!!! :))

love to be "pink" and happy all the time "bubbly" and dreamy.

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